dammit

I'm ranting today.  I'm upset, confused, and pissed off.  And I'm venting here to get it off my chest.  Deal with it.

I  have less than 2 weeks to find a job.  I know it looks like I've been just putting it off, but with my work schedule, I haven't really had the time to go to the job center.  I've been looking in the paper and online, but nothing really there within my transportation limits.  I'm going to the job center today, along with the library to print a copy of my Monster resume.  Hopefully I find something today.  I don't have much more time.  Unemployment won't work--they only give you about 1/2 of what you were making, and that's not even close to what we need, even with sacrifices.

I'm getting sick of jumping through hoops.  Tired of challenges.  Tired in general, too, since I couldn't sleep last night--I was up until about 4:30am, thinking, crying, and talking to myself.  And while I'm on the "I'm screwed" kick, my looks aren't helping me.  I know what you're going to say--it doesn't matter what you look like, it's what's inside that counts.  I know (and somewhat believe) that, but when it comes to job hunting, who are you kidding?  I've been thinking about this all morning, and there's only one phrase that keeps repeating itself--"You don't get a second chance to make a first impression."  Think about it--what's the first thing people look at when you go for an interview?  YOU.  That's what scares me...I'm so insecure about my appearance, and I think that is what everyone else is looking at too.

I'm done for now, but only because I have to take Home Fry to school.  Maybe more later.

til next time...=)